This blog started out as a record of resuming aerial acrobatics after a c-section, a goal that I was more successful with some months than others. At this point, I feel that I am “recovered” for all intents and purposes. Sure, my body is still affected by having had two c-sections, but no more so than some one who has torn their rotator cuff in high school or has a bad back. I have to be mindful to engage my abs so that they do not separate, and I am still working on cuing my lower abs to fire, especially in things like straight-arm inversions. My joint stability is not great at the best of times, and it did not even start to even out until I stopped breastfeeding at about a year. At 16(ish) months post partum, I am only recently back to approximately my pre-baby size and have only been breaking new ground in aerial work in the last few months.
I remember sobbing when I read that many mothers took a full year to get back to their fitness level after baby, and the helplessness I felt when there wasn’t even a path for those who had had a c-section. Now that I am on the other side of it, I will say that it was not what I expected. Yes, it took me about a year but it wasn’t that until that magical year timestamp came that I was just struggling and struggling to regain control of my body. I had been expecting to have to fight for every motion, as I had when I first learned, and it was amazing to see things come back so naturally. Yes, I started at a weaker place than when I first began aerial (remember, I couldn’t lift my feet off the ground) but things came back faster and with more clarity. I understood my body better. I feel like this year has been huge in terms of becoming more expressive and economical with my movement, and I am a better aerialist (even if sitting up out of an ankle hang is a struggle many days).
So much has changed this last year. I am now the co-owner of a small aerial studio (www.abqcircusarts.com) that grew out of our spunky little collective. I’m also running a small graphic design business (www.sarahsuskidesign.com) and raising three kiddos. From here out, this blog is likely to be a hodgepodge of all the things that my life centers on: Circus, Health, Parenting, Creating, and generally being a human right here and now. I hope you will stick along for the ride!